Okay... This is getting out of control... REALLY out of control!!
Para ahli berkata,

First step to cure addiction is by admitting that you have one....

Nah... Nah... Nah...
I really can't help it not to seek these guys' pictures and/or movies...

Sho Sakurai from Arashi

You've seen the group somewhere on the earlier post...
Arashi's one of the biggest group in Japan.... Managed by the biggest boyband supplier from the country. (Perhaps maybe like Contoh Management here... Waaaait... Does Kitagawa Johnny = Benny Simanjuntak??? O.o)

Dan seperti yang kita tau... Japanese Boybands are famous with their BISHOUNEN (cowo cantik... Ya... cantik, no Typos and no brainfart also)... Mkay... Among his teammate, Sho-chan itu yang paling... PALING laki dari semuah.... Can you believe it?? PALING LAKI????!!! That pretty guy is the manliest!! Heheheh...

Masih nyari lanjutannya TOKIO~Chichi e no Dengon... Dimana ya???

Lalu... Ada lelaki ini.....

Narimiya Hiroki

Enggak ganteng sih... Entah kenapa suka ngeliatnya.... Padahal di Honey and Clover gw hina hina... (Shinobu gw jadi aneh begitu!!! Ngeselin!!!)... Currently Watching Stand Up!, one of his Dramas with Ninomiya and Oguri Shun... And I can't stop laughing at Nino's "e~eh" ^^

And This guy also...

Mizishima Hiro

Finished Zettai Kareshi couple of weeks a go.... And of course... Nanba senpai in Hana Kimi...

dan tentunya....



I admit.... I'm addicted to PRETTY GUYS... And I'm loving every second of it....

Magic 4002-ball of Ipod
Got this from someone's blog (forgot the URL... Gomen)

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.

4. Write the answers down, or even comment on it.

===================================================================
1. How are you feeling today?
>>Rolling Star (Yui)
Comment: Sugeeeee!!!!

2. Will you get far in life?
>>Life is Wonderful (Jason Mraz)
Comment: Perhaps I have to hang in there till I find the beauty of life

3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
>>Last Night (Craig Davids)
Comment: Haven't really listen to the song....

4. What is the story of your life?
>>Theme of Mimura (OST Yamada Tarou Monogatari)
Comment: Mimura's story?? Then I will get rich and have a super poor friend...

5. What was school like?
>>Wings of Words (Chemistry)
Comment: Hahahaha... Perhaps School is like sumthin' that would easily forgotten

6. How can you get ahead with life?
>>Be Your Girl (Kawabe Chieko)
Comment: With being someone's girl??? Huahaha... I should find a rich man!! ^^

7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
>>Holding Out for a Hero (Jennifer Saunders)
Comment: My friends are heroes who will gladly save me from my boring life...

8. Describe your grandparents?
>>When I Need You (Julio Iglesias)
Comment: Means they're not around anymore

9. How’s your life going?
>>Imagine (Blake Lewis)
Comment: Full of imagination, my life is...

10. What will be played at my funeral?
>>Fun In the Sun (Steve Harwell)
Comment: ... Errrm... Sounds like a very happy funeral...T^T

11. Will you have a happy life?
>>Poor Unfortunate Soul (OST Little Mermaid)
Comment: Jah!! I got a bad feeling about this...

12. What do your friends really think of you?
>>You Know What They Do To Guys (MCR)
Comment: Gyahahahaha.....

13. Do people secretly lust after you?
>>I'll Cover You (Rent)
Comment: ??

14. How can you make yourself happy?
>>Battlecry (Nujabees feat. Fat John)
Comment: Yippie kay yeay motherf*****! Hey! It does make me happy!!

15. Will you ever have children?
>>Tonight Tonight Tonight (Beat Crussader)
Comment: Holy Zeus!!!!!

16. What song would you strip to?
>>Kazemachi Jet (Sakamoto Maaya)
Comment: It's not really a sexy song to strip...

17. What does your mom think of you?
>>Main Theme of Tarou (Yamada Tarou Monogatari)
Comment: My mom think I'm poor??

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
>>Strenght (Koizumi Kouhei)
Comment: Don't tell anyone... I'm Sylar...

19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
>>One of God's Better People (Robbie Williams)
Comment: The Prophet is my enemy?? OMG.. I'm covered with sin!!!!

20. What’s your personality like?
>>Yesterday (The Beatles)
Comment: Yeah.. I dwell in the past

21. What will be played at your wedding?
>>Magalenha (Sergio Mendez)
Comment: It's gonna be a very latin wedding...

I've Got To Get Going


Somehow, I've stopped caring, and I ended up skiving off all morning
When I make transparent excuses, I get way too depressed
There's the bag of potato chips that she ate last night
And the beer I drank while watching TV just lying there on the table...

I think it's these cloudy days, although I'm mulling over all kinds of stuff

My family tells me, "At least give us a call"
Even though I don't really have anything I can talk about
My girlfriend often tells me, "This is boring"
It'll be noon in a few; I've got to get going soon

When I open the door, the cold air grabs tight hold of my ears
With my hand still on the doorknob, I try sucking in a breath
That starving dog I passed by looks over at me and barks out a laugh
To the point that it looks intentional, my white breaths coil around me one by one

When the weekend comes, will some stuff get a little better?

My girlfriend asks me, "Do you love me?"
And I can never give her a good answer
My friends tell me, "Don't look so surly"
I've had enough of sighs; I've got to get going soon

Everyone tells me, "Grow Up!"
Forget about dreams that I can't even see for my self
Like it's my catchphrase, I tell them, "Sorry"
Enough with the excuses. I really have to go

24-sai no yokusoku

My hands clasped together say something
'If you dash out I may just be on time'
So it’s Bye-Bye to the me of yesterday
Who’d stand at the convenience store, reading magazines.

The sounds of the street that I dash out onto
Sound like cheers

The Sakura bloom in my heart
Those yet nameless dreams have started to grow
Don't look back because there's no tomorrow behind you
So I shall head forward

In front of the station, someone’s singing
That was your favourite song
No matter how far away I go, it definitely won’t fade
That’s why it’s not a parting.

Someday, I hope the two of us will meet by chance
At the place I’m dreaming of.

The Sakura bloom in your heart
Like small buds, shaking around.
I hope you won’t give up now, or feel down
Because I’m singing

The future and all keeps changing
I’ll change it and show you

I take this one step out right after the call, “right dress!�?
It’s the result of the battle—black and white
That’s why I’d like to let you know the key to living
It’s the power to get hold of even a hazy mirage
Sow the seeds now, the flowers will bloom
Talk about it after you’ve done it, we’ll still know what you’re talking about
That’s it, It’s all about keeping up with time
In spring, big flowers will bloom

I’d want to run into you, for sure

The Sakura bloom in my heart
Those yet nameless dreams have started to grow
When I turn back to look, it’s not tomorrow that’s behind me

Move forward! Move forward!!

Plan for the not-too-long holiday
Monday DVD hunting plan: (must buy)
- Tengen Toppa Guren Lagaan
- Code Geass R2
- Water Boys
- Gokusen
- Anything with Arashi members on it… ^^
- What else ya???

Well, most of my plans have sumthin’ to do with watching sumthin’ so:
Plan to watch:
- Tokio - chichi e no dengon – to indulge my Arashi needs.. ^^ (yea.. Sue me!! I like this not-so-manly band). Haven’t found the fansub yet… *jot on notebook – find fan sub*. Damn crunchyroll don’t have ‘em…
- Kurosagi the movie
- Rani’s Charlie Bartlett
- True Tears

To do:
- P-R-O-V-I-N-C-E
- Finish Dini’s To Kill A Mocking Bird
- re-arrange my computer data
- Finish Rifaandme scandalous project *evil grin*

So many thing to do in so little time.. To Gintard, I think we hafte miss the Bandai fair… Ga bakalan sempet..

Doodledee Doodleda...

Bocaaaaan... (Manajemen bina usaha. Monday, Sept, 23, 2008)

My Guiltiest Pleasure Recently

Okay, bring on the laughter bomb....
Don't judge me... But .... Just don't judge me....
It's my Westlife... T-T

Sial.. Stelah lama ga nonton bola, pertandingan pertama yang gw tonton the a**h*** jepentus...
Mana menang lagi... Bad omen nih....

Sushi tei

Ran-pyon disgust face

Sum doodles at werk

My zanpakutou shikai

The Famous Snappy Kemang.

Tempat dimana kami bertemu Nova yg sampe sekarang masih membekas di hati.. *blushing*

Ahahah... Jam 00:00

Ngapain tengah malem buta posting blog??? Jawabannya: Jenuh ngerjain Province tugas 2 minggu lalu dari kantor... Walo pun ngerjainnya sembari nonton/dengerin One Piece dan Bleach, tetep aja ga jadi menyenangkan.... (-_-)*... Mendokuse......

Belom lagi perasaan sebal gara2 orang terkutuk bernama Lelouch Lamperouge yang belom ilang dari sore tadi bikin tambah Muak!!! I hate you Lelouch!!!!!

In every job that must be done there's always an element of fun. You find the fun then 'Snap!!! The job's a game.
~Marry Poppins

Been meddling in this this task since mornin' Miss Poppins, haven't found the fun yet...

Dang It!!
A lightbulb moment appears in the middle of work…!!
Must write… Must write…

Space – You and me versus The World….

There ya have it!!
Haha!!

Ketemu!!!!!!!!

XDDDDD

Setelah bertahun tahun saya mencari kesana kemari tanpa satu petunjuk pun, akhirnya saya diberi pencerahan oleh salah satu friend with benefit saya… Pokopen-chuaaaaaan daisukiiii!!! Hontou ni daisukiiiiii!!!

Kenapa saya segembira ini? Karena setelah lebih dari 10 tahun mencari saya dapatkan apa yang saya cari selama ini… (halah mengulang kata cari)..

ANIMORPH series!!!!

Kalau kamu kenal baik dengan kuh, pasti kamu tau seberapa gilanya daku dengan serial ini. Animorph and me goes beyond Harry Potter series and One Piece manga… Dari mulai SMP kelas satu kalo ga salah gw mulai ngikutin seri ini setelah bosan dengan buku2 Enid Blyton dan serial Goosebumps yang endingnya bikin sakit hati, namun masih mengganggap diri saya terlalu muda untuk beralih ke Fearstreet… Gw ngikutin buku ini dari nomor satu sampe nomor terakhir yang diterbitin Gramedia sebelom dicancel nomor 23. Adapun beberapa yang yang hilang sewaktu saya masih belum menghargai kepemilikan seperti sekarang.

Anyhoo… Mulailah saya membaca karya K. A. Applegate ini. Temanya science fiction, adventure, action, fantasy and a little bit teenage romance drama. Jadi ceritanya, bumi di invasi oleh mahluk luar angkasa berwujud keong, Yerks, yang kerjaannya nyusup ke kuping orang (dan makhluk hidup lain yang berkuping tak terkecuali alien lain) dan menjadikannya host (btw, terjemahannya induk semang -- buset kaya’ koskosan ya??)

Nah, sekelompok anak SMP (SMTP, SLTP or whatever…) sadar kalo bumi telah diinvasi alien gara2 mereka ngeliat cahaya dari langit jatuh di abandoned construction site dan ketemu sama alien jenis Andalit namanya Elfangor yang ternyata semacem panglima besar di planetnya. Nah si Elfangor ini ngasih mereka kekuatan untuk berubah bentuk jadi hewan apapun yang mereka sentuh… Dan kekuatan ini digunakan untuk ngelawan si keong dan ally-nya (Hork Bajir yang kaya mesin gunting rumput namun pemakan tanaman, dan Taxxon yang kaya lipan, dsb).

Pokoknya serial ini menceritakan gimana perasaan anggota animorph itu berubah jadi hewan. Ada yang menyenangkan kaya jadi burung atau lumba-lumba, ada yang anggun kaya jadi kucing dan harimau, ada yang serasa jadi robot kaya waktu jadi semut dan sebagainya.

Dari serial ini gw baru tau kalo semut itu hidupnya dikendaliin sama ratu semut, dan ga ada semut yang punya pikiran sendiri pokoknya menurut deskripsi buku ini, semut itu adalah mahluk sosialis komunis berat dah (fakta yang sungguh bertentangan dengan cerita A Bug’s Life)… Dari serial ini juga gw tau kalo Killer Whale itu juga di sebut Orca (mungkin dari bahasa latinnya Orcinus orca)

Sejak di cancel Gramedia, saya sibuk mencari lanjutan2 dari seri ini, namun apa daya selalu pulang dengan tangan hampa. Beberapa kali daku membuat kotor jendela QB bookstore di beberapa pusat perbelanjaan karena melihat serial ini (dengan bahasa inggris) terpampang apik di etalase sambil berliur. Saat itu saya tak mampu beli.. karena harganya sebuah Rp75,000, adapun uang jajan saya sehari Rp1,000. Satu-satunya harapan adalah ketika Lebaran tiba… Dengan segenap hati mengumpulkan uang salam tempel untuk beli buku berharga ini dan cuman kebeli satu edisi doang T^T.. Pun itu ga nyambung sama buku yang terakhir terbit disini (longkap hampir 10 buku).

Semasa SMU (SMA, SMU, SLTA… Whatever you call it now), saya sempet menemukan serial ini yang telah diadaptasi kedalam serial anak2 di Nickelodeon US, starred Shawn Ashmore (sebelum ngetop jadi Iceman di X-men trilogy) dan satu tokoh lagi yang main di serial Joey, jadi keponakannya Matt LeBlanc. Tanpa sengaja nemu VCD bajakannya di Mangga 2, satu CD ada 3 episode (FYI, terjemahannya busuuuuk banget, bahkan mendingan saya yang terjemahin deh). Cuman ada satu CD doang, abis itu saya nyari lagi sampe goblok ga ada yang jual…

Saya bahkan beli game Sony PS-nya (masih PS 1, buset kemana PS gw yak???) dan bisa tamat 17 belas kali saking demennya sama serial itu (salah satu game favorit saya sepanjang masa, seri sama Musical Rhapsody, Harvest Moon dan Wall Climber).

Tahun demi tahun pun berlalu, tak terasa saya sudah kuliah tahun ketiga, ketika salah seorang teman mulai membicarakan serial ini lagi… Ternyata ada juga orang yang baca serial ini selain daku… (sampai terharu). Bahkan dia bersedia meminjamkan saya beberapa edisi Animorph yang ternyata fotokopian dari buku aslinya (bayangin sodara2 POTOKOPIAN!! Macemnya diktat kuliah!!!). Beberapa edisi tersebut cukup untuk menghilangkan dahaga akan serial ini.

Sekarang, saat saya udah kerja… Teman kuliah saya bersedia ngedonlot-in serial ini dalam bentuk e-book pdf, beserta beberapa buku tambahannya. Side story kalo mau kerennya. Padahal dulu sampe ampir gila daku ga nemu2 buku ini…

Saya cinta Internet!!!!

Decay



You could’ve said a word but you turned away
Why do you always act such a passive way?
Now don’t you ever think that I would suck up to you
But I still believe in you

When I was given freedom, oh all I did was flee
When I turn back there was nothing to see
You closed your doors before I could open mine
Now I know, now I see, it was a waste of time

The days go by, you never seem to learn to fly
And all you do is find the reason why
And all I wished for was for you to face your dreams
I still believe that you can fly

When I was given passion, oh I tried to cool it down
Till I found out, I couldn’t say the words I wanted to say
You are the sun to lighten up my shadows, saved me
And never let it go

The days go by, you never seem to learn to fly
And all you do is find the reason why
And all I wished for was for you to face your dreams
I still believe that you can fly

There’s no way I can talk to who you were ten days ago
Cause you are who you are now

When I was facing reality, I lived in fantasy
Till I put it aside in the space between you and me
If only I could reach the voice in the water
Take me there, it’s gonna be much better

As days go by, we all need to learn to fly
If only I didn’t care about the reason why
And all I wished for was for you to meet my dreams
I still believe that we can fly

I’m just waiting for you to stand up to it
What are you waiting for?

You could’ve said a word but you turned away
Why do you always act such a passive way?
Now don’t you ever think that I would suck up to you
But I still believe in you

Journey from home to work

1.Wish – Arashi
2.My Pace – Sunsetswish
3.Chu Bura – Kelun
4.This Love – Angela Aki
5.Melissa – Porno Graffiti

So much on my head no time to write...

Over Kill by Collin Hay
I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications
Of diving in too deep
And possibly the complications

Especially at night
I worry over situations
I know I'll be alright
Perhaps it's just imagination

Day after day it reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear
Ghosts appear and fade away
Ghosts appear and fade away
Ghosts appear and fade away

An Assessment on my assessment from my workplace

A couple weeks a go, my office issued an assessment on me. According to my supervisor I’m:
Positive:
- Punctual
- A good reporter
- Cooperative
- Meeting deadlines
- Helpful
- And so on and so forth…

Negative:
- Lack of initiative
- Have to work in self confidence
- Lack of concentration
- Have to improve in grammar.

I’m not here to write about my positive aspects (Come on! It’s all common sense for a worker… Hello!!!). Let’s talk about the negative…

Actually, it’s all based on one thing and one thing only. I only have to improve this thing and they all will come around… Something that I can’t seem to get a hold of is my concentration.

From the beginning I know about the term know-your-self, I know that concentration is the one I’m lacking of. But I never know that this little thing could affect everything in my life.

I know that I have a wide range of knowledge. I know about sports, movies, politics, law, music, techno, graphic design, culture, language, religion, history etc… I used to be proud of it but none of them made me curious to dig deep. I don’t have any specialty.

As I analyzing me self it came back to lack of concentration. Let’s put it like this.

As I’m watching football match on TV, my mind started to wonder about the movie Goal! (Starring Kuno Becker by the way) then when I think about movies, I started to think about the movie I like (i.e. Band of Brother), then I’l started to think about how war will destroy everything then my will started to think about famine – bulimic – Nicole Richie – Hollywood – culture – arts – religion – occultism etc etc…

See… My mind sometime wanders off somewhere and I can’t control it. When my mind wanders off it’s hard for me to get back to the first thing I do… Seriously, I can’t help it….

Okay, continue…

Lack of initiative.
I have this some kind of believe… Never volunteer for anything. Because you’ll ends up ruin everything. So you would never see me volunteering in any kind of occasion. Well, sometime I do volunteers, once every blue moon.

To have a good initiative you have to get a good self confidence which I’m also lacking of…

Lack of confidence
What is confidence? Freedom from doubt; belief in yourself and your abilities (wordweb). Freedom from doubt. I always doubt everything!!! Belief in your self and your ability. As I said before, I can’t rely on my ability because I only know the basic.. I always second thought my self. And ends up let some one decide things for me because I don’t believe my self know what good for me.

Sounds Pathetic huh???

My life has been one great big joke,
A dance that's walked
A song that's spoke,
I laugh so hard I almost choke
When I think about myself.
(Maya Angelou)

This is the guy that I'm going to marry
Christoph Metzelder, a guy from Germany.
Facts:
- Plays for Madrid (one of my most hated club)..

- Heard that he grows beard and will never shave it till his injuriy cured...

- Once, so close to inter... Dang!!!

- Plays Cello

- Turns 28 this November...

Gyaaaaa!!! (fangirl scream) *nose bleed* XD!!!!

Battle Between Idealism vs. Stability

It happens again...!!!

The battle between my Idealism and Stability… And the winner is…..!!!

Stability….!!!

So.. The stands are Stability: 3; Idealism: 0….

Guess we couldn’t live based on idealism alone, Ne?

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Have to learn Indonesian...